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sorararasYo. I've just realized that I haven't been posting anything at all. This post is gonna be about the end of this school year and my holidays.
I don't really know what I should talk about first... I have been on vacation for a month already. School has ended, this horrible school year is finally over. I'm gonna be honest here, I still have scars and when I think about what happened, I either get really angry or I almost start crying. I know I should get over it, maybe things will get better, and I'm the only one who can change things. But this year was so scary, I cried so much that I don't really know what I should do. I swear I just... yeah. I had never cried that much. I've always felt really uneasy at school because people usually dislike me, and they badmouth me a lot. But this year was the worst. I'd never felt so out of place before. I really hated almost everyone in my class and they hated me too. Then at some point, maybe I stopped caring as much as I used to, and I started getting better. I was able to laugh again, and I stopped crying everyday. I still hated school, but I got a bit better. I was still really, really lonely. Tbh, I don't even know what happened to me. I just started getting better and I'm not even sure why, or how. I still wonder about that. Anyway. I spent the last 3 days of school alone, though Hélène stayed with me when she was here. The other 3 completely left us. We were both left alone. Friends, they say. Friendship doesn't even mean anything to them. So yeah, I spent most of my last 3 days of school alone, sitting on a bench, while tweeting or reading. It was really nice though, I felt at ease. Probably because the weather was nice and there weren't many people around. It felt so much better than following the 3 and having to deal with people I didn't like. And well... I felt really happy for another reason. I started talking to someone on twitter around that time, and everything they told me made me really happy, and I smiled like a dumbass. I think it's thanks to them that I was able to hold on for 3 more days. They don't know about it, but they really helped me. I kind of want to thank them, but bringing that up would be weird.
Anyway yeah, I'm on vacation now. I got better, I guess. Yes and no. Because now, I don't really have to worry about school anymore. Sadly, I've had a crush on someone for a month. They're all I can think about, from the time I wake up to the time I fall asleep. It's kind of disturbing. I'm kind of scared that I might fall in love with them, because if I do, I'm pretty sure it's never gonna work, and I'll get hurt again. I don't really want this to happen to me again, it was just too hard to deal with :c But feelings can't be controlled, so there's no point in trying to stop. Actually, if you try to stop your feelings, it probably makes things worse. So I'll just let it be~ (^・ω・^ )
Also, on July 1st, we went on vacation to Monflanquin, until July 8th. We arrived in the afternoon, the house was really pretty~ I got super sad when I realized we had to pay for the WiFi LOL. On July 2nd, we walked in Monflanquin, Villeréal, and Castillonnes. These towns were pretty! (´∀`)
Then on July 3rd, we visited the Chasm of Padirac. The weather was horrible (it was cold and it rained), and we had to wait for 2 or 3 hours before actually getting to visit the Chasm (╥_╥) My back was hurting a lot. It was really pretty inside though! It was worth it, the only bad thing was that the visit was really rushed, I mean we didn't stay inside for long and we couldn't really look properly since we had to follow the guide. Then we visited Rocamadour, it's a really pretty village in the mountains!
These were taken in Rocamadour~
On July 4th, we went to Villeneuve-sur-Lot, since we didn't have anything to do. We just walked in town. It was really, really pretty!! Here are a few pictures I took there :
On July 5th, we went to Sarlat and Lascaux! We ate lunch in Montignac because visiting Lascaux. The cave is really, really pretty omg it's only a little part of it and it's not the actual one, but it looks really amazing! I loved it! Then we went to Sarlat and oh my god, this town is so beautiful I swear （人´∀`*）
Etienne de la Boétie's house c:
We went visited the Château de Beynac, which is a caste built in the 12th century. We didn't go inside because it was pretty late, though. I was super tired and I was wearing sandals, and we had to walk in the mountain to get there, and I couldn't even go down because of my sandals lol so I had to walk barefoot (╥_╥)
Then the day after that (July 6th), we went to Latour-Marliac! It's basically a really big garden with lots a water lilies and it's really pretty~ I really loved this place (●´∀｀●)
Aaaaand that's it for the waterlilies! I actually took more pictures, but I'm not gonna post them all, there are too many LOL. These flowers were just so beautiful!
There were ducks in one of the pounds, trying to hide under the waterlilies LOL!
Look at that cute frog! (´∀｀)♡
And that big Koi! ∩( ・ω・)∩
Okay so that's it for the pictures I took in Latour-Marliac!
After that we visited the Jardins de Beauchamp, which are basically... gardens, with different themes (for example Japanese garden, English garden, French garden, etc). My favorite was definitely the Japanese one!
Yep. Then on our way home we saw this really cute mill and my parents wanted to stop and look at it, so I took a picture too~
Then on July 7th, we went on a small boat on the river in Fumel, and it was really pretty and relaxing! I took a few pictures as well :
If I remember correctly, this used to be a castle and it's now the town hall.
After that, we visited the Bonaguil castle~
And then our holidays were over~ We went home! We stopped to visit the Cloître de Cadouin though, and it was reaaaaaally pretty!
And that's everything now! I know there are a lot of pictures sighs, and they aren't even pretty. I'm not good at taking pictures, sorry. Also erm, I know this post looks really messy idk, it doesn't look good enough but I don't really know how to make it better and it's 3:30am and I'm really tired so yep ;u;
I don't really know what I should talk about first... I have been on vacation for a month already. School has ended, this horrible school year is finally over. I'm gonna be honest here, I still have scars and when I think about what happened, I either get really angry or I almost start crying. I know I should get over it, maybe things will get better, and I'm the only one who can change things. But this year was so scary, I cried so much that I don't really know what I should do. I swear I just... yeah. I had never cried that much. I've always felt really uneasy at school because people usually dislike me, and they badmouth me a lot. But this year was the worst. I'd never felt so out of place before. I really hated almost everyone in my class and they hated me too. Then at some point, maybe I stopped caring as much as I used to, and I started getting better. I was able to laugh again, and I stopped crying everyday. I still hated school, but I got a bit better. I was still really, really lonely. Tbh, I don't even know what happened to me. I just started getting better and I'm not even sure why, or how. I still wonder about that. Anyway. I spent the last 3 days of school alone, though Hélène stayed with me when she was here. The other 3 completely left us. We were both left alone. Friends, they say. Friendship doesn't even mean anything to them. So yeah, I spent most of my last 3 days of school alone, sitting on a bench, while tweeting or reading. It was really nice though, I felt at ease. Probably because the weather was nice and there weren't many people around. It felt so much better than following the 3 and having to deal with people I didn't like. And well... I felt really happy for another reason. I started talking to someone on twitter around that time, and everything they told me made me really happy, and I smiled like a dumbass. I think it's thanks to them that I was able to hold on for 3 more days. They don't know about it, but they really helped me. I kind of want to thank them, but bringing that up would be weird.
Anyway yeah, I'm on vacation now. I got better, I guess. Yes and no. Because now, I don't really have to worry about school anymore. Sadly, I've had a crush on someone for a month. They're all I can think about, from the time I wake up to the time I fall asleep. It's kind of disturbing. I'm kind of scared that I might fall in love with them, because if I do, I'm pretty sure it's never gonna work, and I'll get hurt again. I don't really want this to happen to me again, it was just too hard to deal with :c But feelings can't be controlled, so there's no point in trying to stop. Actually, if you try to stop your feelings, it probably makes things worse. So I'll just let it be~ (^・ω・^ )
Also, on July 1st, we went on vacation to Monflanquin, until July 8th. We arrived in the afternoon, the house was really pretty~ I got super sad when I realized we had to pay for the WiFi LOL. On July 2nd, we walked in Monflanquin, Villeréal, and Castillonnes. These towns were pretty! (´∀`)
Then on July 3rd, we visited the Chasm of Padirac. The weather was horrible (it was cold and it rained), and we had to wait for 2 or 3 hours before actually getting to visit the Chasm (╥_╥) My back was hurting a lot. It was really pretty inside though! It was worth it, the only bad thing was that the visit was really rushed, I mean we didn't stay inside for long and we couldn't really look properly since we had to follow the guide. Then we visited Rocamadour, it's a really pretty village in the mountains!
These were taken in Rocamadour~
On July 4th, we went to Villeneuve-sur-Lot, since we didn't have anything to do. We just walked in town. It was really, really pretty!! Here are a few pictures I took there :
On July 5th, we went to Sarlat and Lascaux! We ate lunch in Montignac because visiting Lascaux. The cave is really, really pretty omg it's only a little part of it and it's not the actual one, but it looks really amazing! I loved it! Then we went to Sarlat and oh my god, this town is so beautiful I swear （人´∀`*）
Etienne de la Boétie's house c:
We went visited the Château de Beynac, which is a caste built in the 12th century. We didn't go inside because it was pretty late, though. I was super tired and I was wearing sandals, and we had to walk in the mountain to get there, and I couldn't even go down because of my sandals lol so I had to walk barefoot (╥_╥)
Then the day after that (July 6th), we went to Latour-Marliac! It's basically a really big garden with lots a water lilies and it's really pretty~ I really loved this place (●´∀｀●)
Aaaaand that's it for the waterlilies! I actually took more pictures, but I'm not gonna post them all, there are too many LOL. These flowers were just so beautiful!
There were ducks in one of the pounds, trying to hide under the waterlilies LOL!
Look at that cute frog! (´∀｀)♡
And that big Koi! ∩( ・ω・)∩
Okay so that's it for the pictures I took in Latour-Marliac!
After that we visited the Jardins de Beauchamp, which are basically... gardens, with different themes (for example Japanese garden, English garden, French garden, etc). My favorite was definitely the Japanese one!
Yep. Then on our way home we saw this really cute mill and my parents wanted to stop and look at it, so I took a picture too~
Then on July 7th, we went on a small boat on the river in Fumel, and it was really pretty and relaxing! I took a few pictures as well :
If I remember correctly, this used to be a castle and it's now the town hall.
After that, we visited the Bonaguil castle~
And then our holidays were over~ We went home! We stopped to visit the Cloître de Cadouin though, and it was reaaaaaally pretty!
And that's everything now! I know there are a lot of pictures sighs, and they aren't even pretty. I'm not good at taking pictures, sorry. Also erm, I know this post looks really messy idk, it doesn't look good enough but I don't really know how to make it better and it's 3:30am and I'm really tired so yep ;u;
